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I'm reading the textbook of IMC, thinking of something that I need to write down.

Ok, here is my logic:

I don't have any advantages in PR compared to my American counterparts, cause PR is a very language, culture and communication oriented profession. I may know some of the American culture, may know more of it than my Chinese counterparts, but I can't never compare my culture understanding with my American counterparts. After all, they are grown up in this country. It's not impossible for me to reach the height, but it takes time and it could be very very hard to be in the same level with them in both language and culture understanding. Let alone the social networking and connection thing. I know it's something you need to learn, espcially for me, I know I can learn it but my problem is, if it will make me happy if I learn it. I know it's not about personal happiness, it's about your survival in this country or any country, even my own country. Sometimes, we've gotta do this. We don't have choice. One of my PR professors told us, after spending so many years in New York City, he is just so tired of all the cocktail parties, fake smiles and so on and on. He won't do this anymore, he is kind of getting away from people right now. I think that's why he chose to be a University professor and enjoy his lates in this quiet city. One of the latest episode of Ugly Betty is about Networking, I can always learn something from this amazing show. Anyway, I diagress.

Where am I? OK. I'm talking about the Public Relations Profession. So, it won't be my choice of career here, at least not for now. I think I still have my heart in the marketing business. I wanna focus on the planning and creative process, not the auctual selling part. I think we can call it the marketing communication business. I want to have my internship in a MC agency, not a big corporation. Because I think I can learn more in agency even it's more challenging and hard. And I want to work in a big city. I really like here. People are nice, city are beautiful and queit. But, to me, I think I probably will have more job opportunities in big cities, it's more cultural tolerant, and international. So it has more opportunities for foreingers. That's my logic. I don't know if it's right or wrong, the only thing I can do is to prove it. Well, by big cities, I mean NYC, you got me :)

Auctually, I don't know where am I gonna go in the future. I don't know if I can find a job here. I don't know I don't know. But, like Yuanyuan said, "it's an experience I've gotta have in my life". And Joey said, I can always somehow manage things to work in my way, even though most time, I'm kind of lost and don't know what to do next. I've read a lot of articles and comments about the recent VT tragedy. I thank for all the nice people I've met in the past half year, either Americans or Chinese. I always believe in humanity. And I still do. Anyway, I diagress again. I don't know if things will works towards me again, but I know I gotta do what I can do and what I need to do. Last couple of days, are the most terrible days I feel since I came here. I've never ever felt so upset before since I'm here. I missed my family soooo bad and I even thought about going back home imediately or finish the study ASAP and go back after I graduate. I don't wanna study, I don't wanna cook, I don't even wanna eat. Just sleep all day long and talk to my parents all the time. I know it's not me, it's so not me! What ironic is, it happened for no reason! Probably my PMS helped a little, lol. And I had a really bad cold, and the Chinese New Year. All of these, so, it's not happened for no reason. It happened for a lot of reasons. The terrible thing is, they all came together at the same time! No wonder, I melt down :p But, I'm still me. I won't say quit so easily. I'm all good now, either physically or mentally. It's good to feel back in the stage again and I will do my best. Do what I can, leave other things to God. 

Yay! I can do it!